Deb Brandon: Living in Radiant Color

Not Me

Unfiltered sensory input flooded my systems, crowding me out, jamming up my circuits, disrupting connections, limiting my ability to function physically and cognitively. I felt my mind evaporating, scattering. I felt disconnected, detached, from everything on the inside and out. Nothing fit quite right, nothing belonged. As if some entity had removed the content from … Read more

An Oncoming Train?

My quality of life finally improved—now, my terror had direction. A hurricane slammed into me towards the end of March 2007 when I suffered acute brain bleeds. One day I was fine, and the next—seizures one after the other after the other, indescribable headaches, no balance to speak of, doctors’ appointments, physical therapy, hospitalizations. The … Read more

Feelings

ME: I do feel that over the years, we have become more comfortable with each other. Not so much on our guard. BB: Really? I’m surprised to hear you say that. You do know that if I really feel like striking again, chances are that nothing is going to stop me, not even the blood … Read more

Reminders

Bloody Brain: You seem to be doing pretty well these past few days, at least most of the time. I was a bit worried after the CMU suicides… ME: Yeah. I guess I found my joy. Life does that you know. Things happen, you can’t help but see the good stuff. BB: There has been … Read more