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Beyond Brain Injury

Journeys and Destinations

November 11, 2018

On the phone to my friend, Cindy, voice quivering, occasionally leaking tears, at one point sobbing, I hoped for some answers. What was going on? Why was I so upset? When I noticed that over the last couple of weeks I occasionally became weepy for no apparent reason, I thought that hormones, or exhaustion induced … Read more

Labels and Stories

October 5, 2018

He wore his favorite jeans, soft with wear, in contrast with his white button down shirt, chafing at the collar. He almost raised his arm to ease the discomfort at his neck, but it was safer to stay still. There was nothing to differentiate him from the men blocking his way, except for the shoes. … Read more

The Arizona Summer Oven

June 30, 2018

Hot dry air slammed into me as I exited the cinema. My brain, heavy, pressed against my skull, cutting off my neural pathways. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t move A thought, sluggish, rose in a thick bubble to the surface of the thick soup that was my mind. It became recognizable when the bubble popped … Read more

Mum

June 23, 2018

Pixabay https://pixabay.com/en/flash-thunderstorm-super-cell-2568383/ I remember standing with Mum at the window, watching a thunderstorm. I remember oohing and aahing over the light show. Taking fierce joy in the pouring rain, the glorious lightening preceding the crash of thunder, I forgot my brothers and my mother beside me. At one point, shortly after the show began, Mum … Read more

Brain Injury–Pros and Cons

June 10, 2018

Cons: Loss of independence Sensory overload (i.e. difficulties processing sensor input) Emotional volatility (including depression, anxiety, rage) Headaches Seizures Memory loss Short attention span/easily distracted Damaged sequential thinking Trouble with task initiatio Pros: Heightened awareness (including self-awareness) More in tune with environment More of an extrovert Improved ability to connect with people Increased ability to … Read more

On Death

June 2, 2018

I’m sure there are many of us who while experiencing a life threatening ordeal question our feelings about death. The Lady of Shalott by Henry Peach Robinson (1830-1901) (labeled for reuse) I remember my fear of dying during my first few months after my brain bleeds. Each seizure scared me—would this one kill me? Every … Read more

The Other Shoe

May 26, 2018

Back from a trip to visit my family in Israel, I’m waiting for the other shoe to drop. On my first day back, I was exhausted, which was only to be expected. After all, I was jet lagged and combined with the usual bloody brain-related fatigue… The bloody brain has taught me long ago that … Read more

No Sweat

May 9, 2018

20100321 Car Accident 004 photo credit: cygnus921 I asked Sarah to alert me when I got too close to the side of the garage door. I slammed on the breaks when I heard the crunch. “You’re too close.” We both burst into laughter. It was hilarious, and the car… I shrugged internally—was already embellished with … Read more

Breathing

May 4, 2018

Body of Sternum Frontal en:Anatomography I remember hearing myself yell and the box of books shifting as the corner slammed into my chest. I don’t remember much else about the actual fall. I knew I didn’t hit my head—was that my first thought? Did I yell because of my fear of another brain injury? I … Read more

Battle of Opposits

March 10, 2018

Yes, I admit to using the five second rule—if a pretzel falls on the floor and I pick it up within five seconds, I deem it still edible. As long as the floor isn’t too horrifically dirty. When I read my friend’s post about the five second rule, I was confused. What did the rule … Read more