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Beyond Brain Injury

CBD

January 22, 2019

Is this it? Have I finally found that elusive magic pain killer? Living a full life comes at a price. Among many other symptoms, I suffer from extreme fatigue and debilitating headaches. Spending my life hiding a darkened room is not an option. I will not surrender to my damaged brain. I recently returned from … Read more

Teach the Children

January 15, 2019

I paused, took a deep breath, then read through the problem again. It still looked like a tangle of black yarn with no beginning and no end. Okay, okay, I can do this. Line by line. Sentence by sentence. I read the first sentence: “An island is 2 miles due north of its closest point … Read more

Optimism

January 8, 2019
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I pulled away from the gas pump— Klunk! I looked to Joyce. “What the hell was that?” “I think that must have been the nozzle.” I drew a blank. “What do you mean it was the nozzle? Which nozzle?” Joyce shrugged. “The gas nozzle. I guess you forgot to take it out.” My inner volcano, … Read more

Cockles

November 22, 2018

I thanked my Facebook friends for their good wishes. “You’ve warmed the cockles of my heart.” scrolled down some more and logged out. Eyelids heavy, I put my phone down, and rolled over. I was confident I’d get back to sleep. I sank into my pillow, relaxed my muscles one by one, and focused on … Read more

Journeys and Destinations

November 11, 2018

On the phone to my friend, Cindy, voice quivering, occasionally leaking tears, at one point sobbing, I hoped for some answers. What was going on? Why was I so upset? When I noticed that over the last couple of weeks I occasionally became weepy for no apparent reason, I thought that hormones, or exhaustion induced … Read more

Labels and Stories

October 5, 2018

He wore his favorite jeans, soft with wear, in contrast with his white button down shirt, chafing at the collar. He almost raised his arm to ease the discomfort at his neck, but it was safer to stay still. There was nothing to differentiate him from the men blocking his way, except for the shoes. … Read more

The Arizona Summer Oven

June 30, 2018

Hot dry air slammed into me as I exited the cinema. My brain, heavy, pressed against my skull, cutting off my neural pathways. I couldn’t breathe. I couldn’t move A thought, sluggish, rose in a thick bubble to the surface of the thick soup that was my mind. It became recognizable when the bubble popped … Read more

Mum

June 23, 2018

Pixabay https://pixabay.com/en/flash-thunderstorm-super-cell-2568383/ I remember standing with Mum at the window, watching a thunderstorm. I remember oohing and aahing over the light show. Taking fierce joy in the pouring rain, the glorious lightening preceding the crash of thunder, I forgot my brothers and my mother beside me. At one point, shortly after the show began, Mum … Read more

Brain Injury–Pros and Cons

June 10, 2018

Cons: Loss of independence Sensory overload (i.e. difficulties processing sensor input) Emotional volatility (including depression, anxiety, rage) Headaches Seizures Memory loss Short attention span/easily distracted Damaged sequential thinking Trouble with task initiatio Pros: Heightened awareness (including self-awareness) More in tune with environment More of an extrovert Improved ability to connect with people Increased ability to … Read more

On Death

June 2, 2018

I’m sure there are many of us who while experiencing a life threatening ordeal question our feelings about death. The Lady of Shalott by Henry Peach Robinson (1830-1901) (labeled for reuse) I remember my fear of dying during my first few months after my brain bleeds. Each seizure scared me—would this one kill me? Every … Read more